It's now 4:34AM, in the very early hours of Saturday morning. This is the second time since Tuesday that I've lain awake until this hour, turning thoughts over in my mind.
"What does it all mean???" I want to scream out to God. But deep down, I know the answer. It means that my mission, for now at least, lies in the non-profit sector. But why? I want to ask. And how do you know that? It's a stillness that drops, I think. It wasn't so much the actual words of the post as it was the meaning behind them, that I would get a chance to live my faith, to be a part of an intentional, peace-seeking, non-violent community. These things matter and these are the things to which I am devoting my life.
What does that mean for me now? It means that my priorities are shifting. It means that I've got to do my best because the Person I'm working for won't take any less. I think I've known this all along, but now it matters even more.
I've set my alarm clock for 7:00AM, to go apple picking with friends. For reasons I'll explain later on, this is early for me. If I am to do my best, this must not be early anymore. This must be commonplace. It's time to pull out all the stops. This is for real.
